I know I have been absolutely horrible at keep up with this thing. I think it is time to get back into the swing of things. I could sit here and rewrite every journal entry I made from my trip to Ethiopia in January, but I will spare you all. I think my second trip to Ethiopia can be summed up like this: I have a more clearer vision of what God wants me to do now. I know now God has called me to program development in Ethiopia. He wants me to create programs to serve the needs of Ethiopians. Projrams that will help them help themselves. Programs that will give them a leg up out of poverty so they can support themselves and their families. Programs that will destroy poverty and help people live lives that are financially sercure. Living lives where they don't need to worry about where their next meal is coming from because they make enough money that they can buy food to feed their family. I am so excited to see where God takes me on this journey.
I am not going to sit here for one minute and proclaim that I know exactly how to go about this and that I know what I am doing because I don't. I will be the first person to admit that. I know nothing about program development and building nonprofits. I just know nothing about that at all. What I do know is if God wants me to do it He will help me do it. He doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called! I just feel so blessed that He has picked me to do this work in Ethiopia. He picked me! Even if this is just a small portion of the work that needs to be done, it is still an important part. I am completely and utterly humbled that God would entrust me to such a feat. I have no choice but to fully rely on Him to help me accomplish what He has called me to do. And what else would I do besides that?? Even if there was another choice...this is the only thing I would do.
I would love for you to be a part of this journey with me. God is doing some pretty amazing things in my life right now and for that I am truly blessed. I could not imagine my life without my Savior...and I don't want to. He is amazing and wonderful and has done so much for me. I love Him!
I will post some pictures later from my trip in January. While I was there, I also had the opportunity to visit with my sponsored child, Abreham. This was a wonderful experience. Even though he was very shy, I really loved spending time with him. Now all I have to do is learn Amharic better so I will be able to talk to him next time I go visit him.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Pics from July 2008
Here is a video I made a few months ago from my pictures from my trip in July. I thought I would post this before I start posting about my most recent trip. Not all the pictures I took, some were taken by my fellow team mates on Team Ethiopiawesome.
Enjoy! :)
Enjoy! :)
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I'm back on track!
Well, just about. Now that I have finally finished posting about my last trip to Ethiopia, I can finally post about the trip I just returned from. Once I do that I will be all cought up on this whole blog thing. Sorry it has taken me so long to get this far. Life was crazy the last 6 months since I got back from the last trip and then getting ready for this trip. It was hard to find to to get up to date. I'm sure I have all of your forgiveness on that. :)
I am hoping to get caught up fully in the next few days and begin posting regularly on what God is showing me and about my calling to Ethiopia. I hope you all stick around...I know it will be quite an adventure! :)
I am hoping to get caught up fully in the next few days and begin posting regularly on what God is showing me and about my calling to Ethiopia. I hope you all stick around...I know it will be quite an adventure! :)
July 16, 2008
I did not sleep well alst night. I think I slept about 5 hours. Elizabeth and I left the hotel at 6:15am for the airport. We both knew what was coming, but I tried not to think about it. After checking in and gettting through security, we grabbed some breakfast. That's when I started to loose it. It just all hit me that we are all leaving each other. I know we will all see each other agian, but it's just hard to elave everyone.
I'm not not ready to go back to my life yet. I'm preparing for reverse culture shock because I know it's coming. I can feel it already. American life is just not what I want to live. I really want to be back in Ethiopia. I just love it there so much. Life was amazing when I was there. I was the person I've always known I was. I came out of this shell I've been living in for far too long and I loved it. I would have stayed if I could. My soul yearns to be in Ethiopia. I need to be there. I need Africa more than Africa needs me. I can't say it any better. That is all there is to say:
I'm not not ready to go back to my life yet. I'm preparing for reverse culture shock because I know it's coming. I can feel it already. American life is just not what I want to live. I really want to be back in Ethiopia. I just love it there so much. Life was amazing when I was there. I was the person I've always known I was. I came out of this shell I've been living in for far too long and I loved it. I would have stayed if I could. My soul yearns to be in Ethiopia. I need to be there. I need Africa more than Africa needs me. I can't say it any better. That is all there is to say:
I need Africa more than Africa needs me!
July 15, 2008
We have been on the flight for a couple of hours now. My stomach is killing me. I can't eat anything without my stomach getting upset since leaving Ethiopia. I'm feeling very upset knowing I'm going back to a place I really don't want to be. I want to be in Ethiopia. Everything about America makes me want to vomit. Except for being from there gives me the chance to really bring change to Ethiopia. We have many more resources and priveleges I can use to really help in Ethiopia.
I am really struggling with what I should do once I return home. I know God wants me back in Ethiopia. Ethiopia is no longer a major part of my heart, but a major part of my soul as well. But what am I going to do about it while at home?
Once we land, I tried not to think about what was to come. We collected all of our bags and the good-byes were inevitable. I broke down. It was so incredibly sad to say good-bye to everyone. I didn't want to leave Ethiopia, but I also didn't want to leave my group. I love each and every one of my team members. They are so special to me--we have shared just about everything. I'm going to miss them all very much. They have brought out the best in me. I can't imagine what life is going to be like without them in it every day. Two weeks might seem short to feel that close to people, but when you spend every minute of every day for 2 weeks with them you get really really close.
I am really struggling with what I should do once I return home. I know God wants me back in Ethiopia. Ethiopia is no longer a major part of my heart, but a major part of my soul as well. But what am I going to do about it while at home?
Once we land, I tried not to think about what was to come. We collected all of our bags and the good-byes were inevitable. I broke down. It was so incredibly sad to say good-bye to everyone. I didn't want to leave Ethiopia, but I also didn't want to leave my group. I love each and every one of my team members. They are so special to me--we have shared just about everything. I'm going to miss them all very much. They have brought out the best in me. I can't imagine what life is going to be like without them in it every day. Two weeks might seem short to feel that close to people, but when you spend every minute of every day for 2 weeks with them you get really really close.
July 14, 2008
The bus arrived at 2 am. We got loaded up and headed for the airport. I was tearing up the entrile ride. I'm not ready to leave. I love it here so much. I started to become really uneasy when we got to the airport. We went through security and then the time came to say good-bye. I lost it! I started crying so hard. It was hard saying good-bye to Geoffrey, Surafel, and Daina. I was bawling standing in line waiting for my boarding pass.
I want to stay so much. I know God has so much more planned for me in Ethiopia that I just want to stay and do it, but God has His own timing and that is when it will happen. I cried for so long. Every few minutes I start crying. I don't want to go home. I feel so much in my heart to be in Ethiopia that I want to stay, but God has His reasons for doing this. I just have to rely on Him and I will be back soon. I need to be back soon. I feel such a pull to stay. I definitely need Ethiopia in my life.
I have realized I am more myself or more the self I want to be when I'm in Ethiopia. This is truly what I was made to do. Everything else just disgusts me. If it disgusts me, I am definitely not supposed to be doing it. When I'm in Ethiopia I feel more joy and happiness than I have ever felt in my life. This is what brings me joy in life and it's what I'm supposed to be doing.
I am so upset to have to leave because of how much I know I am supposed to be here. Now that I am not in Ethiopia, I am on the plane, I feel more love and more of a calling for Ethiopia than ever before. It is so intense--I've never felt anything like it before.
we land in London. I'm a little uneasy. I should be happy to be here, but I just keep thinking about Ethiopia. I have always wanted to visit London, but I think I just feel more out of place than ever in my life. Not just in London, but in life in general. It's like how we are called to be in the world, but not of the world--except on a different scale. This is more of an intense feeling of being set apart than I have ever felt before.
I want to stay so much. I know God has so much more planned for me in Ethiopia that I just want to stay and do it, but God has His own timing and that is when it will happen. I cried for so long. Every few minutes I start crying. I don't want to go home. I feel so much in my heart to be in Ethiopia that I want to stay, but God has His reasons for doing this. I just have to rely on Him and I will be back soon. I need to be back soon. I feel such a pull to stay. I definitely need Ethiopia in my life.
I have realized I am more myself or more the self I want to be when I'm in Ethiopia. This is truly what I was made to do. Everything else just disgusts me. If it disgusts me, I am definitely not supposed to be doing it. When I'm in Ethiopia I feel more joy and happiness than I have ever felt in my life. This is what brings me joy in life and it's what I'm supposed to be doing.
I am so upset to have to leave because of how much I know I am supposed to be here. Now that I am not in Ethiopia, I am on the plane, I feel more love and more of a calling for Ethiopia than ever before. It is so intense--I've never felt anything like it before.
we land in London. I'm a little uneasy. I should be happy to be here, but I just keep thinking about Ethiopia. I have always wanted to visit London, but I think I just feel more out of place than ever in my life. Not just in London, but in life in general. It's like how we are called to be in the world, but not of the world--except on a different scale. This is more of an intense feeling of being set apart than I have ever felt before.
July 13, 2008
I woke up this morning realizing we are starting our journey home today. I was saddened by this. I have truly fallen in love with Ethiopia and do not want to leave. Eating breakfast, I realized it would be the last breakfast we would have together as a team--all of us being together.
After our team devotion time, we went shopping at a market to get any gifts or anything we wanted to buy. This was my first experience we having to bargain for a price. You already know you are being overcharged as it is, so you have to get them to come down in price. You also know this is how they make money to support their family so you don't want to come too far down.
We went out to dinner as a team. Dinner was a great time even though in the back of my mind I knew this was the last time we would all be together. After dinner we had to say some goodbyes. This was sad. The trip was coming to an end weather we wanted it to or not.
After arriving back at the guest house to pack and rest a bit before the flight, the staff had prepared coffee for us. The trip really was ending.
After our team devotion time, we went shopping at a market to get any gifts or anything we wanted to buy. This was my first experience we having to bargain for a price. You already know you are being overcharged as it is, so you have to get them to come down in price. You also know this is how they make money to support their family so you don't want to come too far down.
We went out to dinner as a team. Dinner was a great time even though in the back of my mind I knew this was the last time we would all be together. After dinner we had to say some goodbyes. This was sad. The trip was coming to an end weather we wanted it to or not.
After arriving back at the guest house to pack and rest a bit before the flight, the staff had prepared coffee for us. The trip really was ending.
July 12, 2008
This morning we went back to Hannah's Orphanage to help the children with their chores. We spent some time at the houses, but then went ot hte compound to help clean. We did laundry for almost 4 hours in the pouring rain. And it isn't like laundry here. It is buckets with soap and water and then buckets with water to rinse. It was long hard work. The rain made it so much more difficult. After laundry, we went inside and the children sang songs for us. we then sang a few songs for then.
After eating lunch at the guest house, we left to go somewhere that was a surprise. It was outside the city so it was a drive. We arrived to find out we would be riding donkeys! This is an experience I will never forget! The donkey were bare back. My donkey was a little crazy and ran towards the river and almost tossed me in the water. I then proceeded to fall of the donkey. At least I can say I have ridden a donkey.
After eating lunch at the guest house, we left to go somewhere that was a surprise. It was outside the city so it was a drive. We arrived to find out we would be riding donkeys! This is an experience I will never forget! The donkey were bare back. My donkey was a little crazy and ran towards the river and almost tossed me in the water. I then proceeded to fall of the donkey. At least I can say I have ridden a donkey.
July 11, 2008
In the morning we went to the Fistula Hospital here in Addis. Before our tour we learned about what they do. The hospital performs surgeries on women who have injuries from giving birth. They can sometimes get tears during childbirth and then have no control over bodily fluids leaking out. These women are shunned by society, their community, and their families. Since so many people are uneducated about it, they are seen to be cursed. The hospital performs as many surgeries as neccessary until the patient is healed--if htey can be healed. They also educate the family about it being a medical condition so they can go back and educate the community. The goeal is to get them back to their homes without worry of shunning. If this is not possible or if they annot be healed, the hospital trains them as nurse's aides and provides them with housing and a job.
In the afternoon, we went back to Hannah's Orphanage. I was video taping the arts and crafts stations, but we were running late on time and had to help with the face painting. It was so much fun. We then went to see where the children live. I was actually surprised at how nice they were. Only 2 people to a bed, a dinning room table, and they really weren't that small. There are about 6 or so in each home that live together.
In the afternoon, we went back to Hannah's Orphanage. I was video taping the arts and crafts stations, but we were running late on time and had to help with the face painting. It was so much fun. We then went to see where the children live. I was actually surprised at how nice they were. Only 2 people to a bed, a dinning room table, and they really weren't that small. There are about 6 or so in each home that live together.
July 10, 2008
Today was a mixed day. I really loved the morning, but the afternoon was a little difficult. In the morning we went to AHOPE, and orphanage for HIV positive children. I was not sure how I was going to react to the situation. When we got there most of the childrne were in their classroom, only the little ones were out. THere was one little boy who was very mellow and hung out with Jessica mostly. He has been adopted and will be going home to Colorado as soon as all the paperwork is complete. There was also a little boy and a little girl who are siblings and they have been adopted together and are going to Spain. How wonderful is that? It's wonderful because people are willing to adopt HIV positive chilerne, but it's amazing that people are willing to adopt a sibset.
After being there for about 5 minutes, you forget the children have HIV. They are no different than any other child. They sill play, laugh, and are full of love. They are just sick. The older children came out of their classrooms and we all played for a while. Then we all went inside and the children sang for us. It was adorable. They sang "Twinkle, Twinkle" and "Itsy, Bitsy, Spider" in English. we then sang some songs back to them--it was great.
We then went back out to play a little longer. As I was walking around, a little boy started walking towards me. He put his hand up and just looked at me. All he wanted was to be picked up. So, I held him for a little wile. He is so sick. Definitely the sickest one there. We just sat for a while. That is really all he wanted--to be held. I think when we all are sick we want to be held and know we will be better one day. I pray that You heal this little boy from every ailment he has. Heal him so he can run around and play with the other children. He is such a beautiful little boy.
In the afternoon, we went to Hannah's Orphanage. These children are orphans, but live in foster care homes and are just at the orphanage during the day for school and such. I found my time there to be difficult only because of the language barrier. The children were in different discussion groups. Each group had 5 questions they had to answer. Elizabeth and I were so confused. I was a little frustrated not at the children, but at the language situation. One boy was trying so hard to translate for us. Even though his English was wonderful, it was just difficult to understand.
It was another good day, though. I'm taking in so much. I'm learning and experiencing so many new things. I'm just really loving my time here and I'm not yet ready to go home. My heart and spirit just yearn to be here.
After being there for about 5 minutes, you forget the children have HIV. They are no different than any other child. They sill play, laugh, and are full of love. They are just sick. The older children came out of their classrooms and we all played for a while. Then we all went inside and the children sang for us. It was adorable. They sang "Twinkle, Twinkle" and "Itsy, Bitsy, Spider" in English. we then sang some songs back to them--it was great.
We then went back out to play a little longer. As I was walking around, a little boy started walking towards me. He put his hand up and just looked at me. All he wanted was to be picked up. So, I held him for a little wile. He is so sick. Definitely the sickest one there. We just sat for a while. That is really all he wanted--to be held. I think when we all are sick we want to be held and know we will be better one day. I pray that You heal this little boy from every ailment he has. Heal him so he can run around and play with the other children. He is such a beautiful little boy.
In the afternoon, we went to Hannah's Orphanage. These children are orphans, but live in foster care homes and are just at the orphanage during the day for school and such. I found my time there to be difficult only because of the language barrier. The children were in different discussion groups. Each group had 5 questions they had to answer. Elizabeth and I were so confused. I was a little frustrated not at the children, but at the language situation. One boy was trying so hard to translate for us. Even though his English was wonderful, it was just difficult to understand.
It was another good day, though. I'm taking in so much. I'm learning and experiencing so many new things. I'm just really loving my time here and I'm not yet ready to go home. My heart and spirit just yearn to be here.
July 9, 2008
I was really looking forward to this morning. We went to the transition home for America World Adoption Agency. I loved it there! All the children there have been matched up with families and are just waiting for all the paperwork to be finalized so their parents can come pick them up. THe children are so loved and well cared for.
I was holding a baby boy just about the entire time we were there. He was so cute. I fed him and then he threw up on me. It wasn't really that big of a deal--things happen. I really didn't want to leave the transitional home. I could have stayed all day just holding that baby.
After we left, we drove to the study center in Kechene. After what happened yesterday, I really did not want to be there. We did the holiday day with them and honestly I couldn't wait to get out of there. We did our skit and taught them about Easter. I helped hide the eggs for the hunt. I was really drained by that whole thing, too. We then taught them about Valentine's Day. The kids made Valentines for someone they love. We then filled out the Valentines, that were made from a group of women as donations for the trip, in Amharic. We wrote: Happy Valentine's Day. Jesus Loves You. I'm sure most of them did not say that as Amharic is a very difficult language to write.
The staff then invited us to have coffee. This is an honor because in their culture the coffee is a long process. It's more of a ceremony. The smell of the beans roasting was amazing. The coffee was really good. After we finished with the coffee, we brought 2 of the children home. WE were invited into their homes. The first house was much like I expected. One room where everything is done. Everything from sleeping, to living, to working, to learning. The kitchen was outside, but had a tin roof over it and some type of siding. The next house we went to was nicer than I thought it would be. There was furniture, multiple rooms, and even a t.v. There were still problems with the house leaking and being too small for the 11 people who lived there.
It was hard to see these living conditions, but I think I was somewhat prepared for it. Through my research I learned what housing was like here. Even though I know all this, you still are not 100% prepared to experience it. By the time we were at the 2nd house the neighbors realized we were there. There were people everywhere asking for food and money. It was really overwhelming. There were too many people for me to handle. As we were walking out, children began following us and singing song to us in English. A man came near our group and yelled "get out!". Even though we are there with pure and nice intentions we are still not welcomed by some.
We only have 4 more days before we leave on Monday. This trip is going by so quickly. I am not ready to go home yet. I am really dreading going back to my old life. I don't really like anything about my life back home. There is nothing there that I want my life to be about. I'm not doing anything I'm passionate about at home. Tonight at dinner Geoffrey said do what you are passionate about. I'm passionate about Africa and children--particularly orphans. My passions are what I am doing here in Ethiopia.
I was holding a baby boy just about the entire time we were there. He was so cute. I fed him and then he threw up on me. It wasn't really that big of a deal--things happen. I really didn't want to leave the transitional home. I could have stayed all day just holding that baby.
After we left, we drove to the study center in Kechene. After what happened yesterday, I really did not want to be there. We did the holiday day with them and honestly I couldn't wait to get out of there. We did our skit and taught them about Easter. I helped hide the eggs for the hunt. I was really drained by that whole thing, too. We then taught them about Valentine's Day. The kids made Valentines for someone they love. We then filled out the Valentines, that were made from a group of women as donations for the trip, in Amharic. We wrote: Happy Valentine's Day. Jesus Loves You. I'm sure most of them did not say that as Amharic is a very difficult language to write.
The staff then invited us to have coffee. This is an honor because in their culture the coffee is a long process. It's more of a ceremony. The smell of the beans roasting was amazing. The coffee was really good. After we finished with the coffee, we brought 2 of the children home. WE were invited into their homes. The first house was much like I expected. One room where everything is done. Everything from sleeping, to living, to working, to learning. The kitchen was outside, but had a tin roof over it and some type of siding. The next house we went to was nicer than I thought it would be. There was furniture, multiple rooms, and even a t.v. There were still problems with the house leaking and being too small for the 11 people who lived there.
It was hard to see these living conditions, but I think I was somewhat prepared for it. Through my research I learned what housing was like here. Even though I know all this, you still are not 100% prepared to experience it. By the time we were at the 2nd house the neighbors realized we were there. There were people everywhere asking for food and money. It was really overwhelming. There were too many people for me to handle. As we were walking out, children began following us and singing song to us in English. A man came near our group and yelled "get out!". Even though we are there with pure and nice intentions we are still not welcomed by some.
We only have 4 more days before we leave on Monday. This trip is going by so quickly. I am not ready to go home yet. I am really dreading going back to my old life. I don't really like anything about my life back home. There is nothing there that I want my life to be about. I'm not doing anything I'm passionate about at home. Tonight at dinner Geoffrey said do what you are passionate about. I'm passionate about Africa and children--particularly orphans. My passions are what I am doing here in Ethiopia.
July 8, 2008
Today was a tough day. The morning was wonderful because I got to see a somewhat of a solution to the poverty problem. We went to Selam which is a vocational school. They are teaching men and women a trade. The man who gave us the tour said with this training they can make up to 7 times more than the average Ethiopian income per month. How wonderful is that? They are opening so many doors for these people than they would normally have. This is helping them get out of poverty, but it is also helping their families who would have suffered in poverty if it hadn't been for a place like Selam.
It is just so nice to see a place that is looking at the problem and coming up with a solution. They aren't just putting a band-aide on a symptom of the problem. They are allowing these people to help themselves and better themselves. They aren't just throwing money at them that will feed them for a day; they are teaching them skills that will help feed them for a lifetime.
In the afternoon, we went back to the study center in Kechene. The kids were happy to see us and some of them remembered us from Friday. I was so tired from not sleeping well last night that I just didn't have the right attitude going in. We played for a little while in the year. The children were very active today which is a huge contrast from Friday.
We broke the children up into groups to play games. Jessica and I played Hot Potato with our group. The children loved the music! They love to dance! It was fun with the smaller group--not so overwhelming. we then brought the kids over to join the other groups All the kids wanted a balloon. They went crazy! They started getting really mad when I said we were all out. It turned into a mad house. It was borderline violent. One little boy, probably 10-12ish, grabbed my arm and would not let go. He started squeezing harder and harder. I had to really push him off of me. I felt bad, but I know it was going to be the only thing to get him off of me. At that moment, I was just so overwhelmed by the whole situation I wanted to leave. I was not having a good time and found myself becoming angry at the children. I hated that. I don't want to be mad at these kids. It was just a very difficult situation. It was definitely a learning experience though. I know what we shouldn't do next time. We definitely need to take a different approach when we go back tomorrow.
It is just so nice to see a place that is looking at the problem and coming up with a solution. They aren't just putting a band-aide on a symptom of the problem. They are allowing these people to help themselves and better themselves. They aren't just throwing money at them that will feed them for a day; they are teaching them skills that will help feed them for a lifetime.
In the afternoon, we went back to the study center in Kechene. The kids were happy to see us and some of them remembered us from Friday. I was so tired from not sleeping well last night that I just didn't have the right attitude going in. We played for a little while in the year. The children were very active today which is a huge contrast from Friday.
We broke the children up into groups to play games. Jessica and I played Hot Potato with our group. The children loved the music! They love to dance! It was fun with the smaller group--not so overwhelming. we then brought the kids over to join the other groups All the kids wanted a balloon. They went crazy! They started getting really mad when I said we were all out. It turned into a mad house. It was borderline violent. One little boy, probably 10-12ish, grabbed my arm and would not let go. He started squeezing harder and harder. I had to really push him off of me. I felt bad, but I know it was going to be the only thing to get him off of me. At that moment, I was just so overwhelmed by the whole situation I wanted to leave. I was not having a good time and found myself becoming angry at the children. I hated that. I don't want to be mad at these kids. It was just a very difficult situation. It was definitely a learning experience though. I know what we shouldn't do next time. We definitely need to take a different approach when we go back tomorrow.
July 7, 2008
Today was an amazing day. It started out very early. I ws up at 6am! We had to leave by 7:30am if we were to be on time for the day. Breakfast was toast and tea since we were in a hurry. After breakfast, we found out because of all the rain we would not be able to go to the lake like we had planned. The roads were bad enough to get there and with the rain it would just be too dangerous. Geoffrey said we would be going to the waterfall instead.
We went on a drive that I truly believed we would not make it out alive. The roads were really bad and I thought we were definitely be getting stuck. Since our bus driver was absolutely nuts, we almost hit a people and almost ran over some animals.
We went up to this overlook and the view was amazing. Ethiopia is gorgeous! I can't even begin to describe it. We went to the waterfall, but couldn't go in because they were going to overcharge us because we are forengies (foreigners).
We drove back to Addis. We picked up a couple of people who needed a ride. The cutest little boy was on the bus. He was just striking. He reached out for my hand and would not let go the entire time he was on the bus.
Once back in Addis, we went to Kids Care orphanage. I loved my time there. I grabbed a baby and just help him. It was wonderful. I probably held him for over an hour. There was a spot on the back of his head that was bald because you know he is laying down most of the day. I totally fell in love with that little boy. Even though the house mothers care for the babies, there just aren't enough hand to provide the kind of attention these children need. They just want to be held. They just need to be loved. They just deserve a family.
It was an amazing and wonderful day. I aw both sides of Ethiopia's beauty--the land and the babies. Everything about this country is gorgeous and I just love it so much.
We went on a drive that I truly believed we would not make it out alive. The roads were really bad and I thought we were definitely be getting stuck. Since our bus driver was absolutely nuts, we almost hit a people and almost ran over some animals.
We went up to this overlook and the view was amazing. Ethiopia is gorgeous! I can't even begin to describe it. We went to the waterfall, but couldn't go in because they were going to overcharge us because we are forengies (foreigners).
We drove back to Addis. We picked up a couple of people who needed a ride. The cutest little boy was on the bus. He was just striking. He reached out for my hand and would not let go the entire time he was on the bus.
Once back in Addis, we went to Kids Care orphanage. I loved my time there. I grabbed a baby and just help him. It was wonderful. I probably held him for over an hour. There was a spot on the back of his head that was bald because you know he is laying down most of the day. I totally fell in love with that little boy. Even though the house mothers care for the babies, there just aren't enough hand to provide the kind of attention these children need. They just want to be held. They just need to be loved. They just deserve a family.
It was an amazing and wonderful day. I aw both sides of Ethiopia's beauty--the land and the babies. Everything about this country is gorgeous and I just love it so much.
July 6, 2008
I had to take a cold shower this morning. I was shivering the whole time. In the midst of my complaining I realize it is a privilege to take a shower and I shouldn't be complaining. There are people right down the street who don't ever get to shower. At least I get to shower. The people living right down the street are living in shacks or even nothing at all and here I am complaining about a towel that is too thin. I really need to start thinking about how really privileged my life is and I really don't have any right to be complaining.
After breakfast, we went to church where we were playing with the children yesterday. It was amazing. The energy was crazy. These people really know how to worship. There was a little girl, probably around 6-8, just worshiping so amazingly. She was truly crying out to God. I will never forget that image. Once the service was over, the children gathered around and sang songs.
We then came back to the hotel to eat lunch. Lunch took forever and we were already running behind. We got in the bus and went to give lunch to the street kids. They were so happy. These boys have nothing--nothing at all and they still find enough joy in life to smile. They have no families, no place to sleep, no one to show them love, and they are still happy. It just amazes me.
After lunch, they all went to play soccer and this is when I started feeling sick. My stomach was cramping and it hurt so much. I really needed to find a bathroom. I was told there was a bathroom I could use. I grabbed some tissues and went to find it. I was told "they aren't good, but adequate". I was thinking the toilets must be dirty, but I could easily clean it off. I looked in the first once and there was nothing there. I thought maybe someone stole the toilet or something. I looking in the second one and realized that was it. A hole in the ground was the toilet. I had to go so badly I just had to do it. It was the most demeaning and humiliating thing I have ever done.
I knew I would need God to use something big to get my attention and have everything just click about Ethiopia, but I never thought that would be it. I was down at my lowest point and that is when I realized how bad things are here. These people have to squat over a hole every day of their life because they don't have plumbing. Geoffrey told me I shouldn't feel as bad as I do because they don't find it demeaning or humiliating because it's just life. But it shouldn't be that way. Everything they go through they shouldn't be ok with and just say it's life and to deal with it. Something should be done. No one deserves to live like this. No one should ever feel this is their lot in life and just deal with it.
I have to really pray for God's plan with all of this. I had this huge calling and feeling for being in Ethiopia for over a year, but as soon as I got here that seemed to go away. Even with everything I saw and experienced never brought that feeling back. But after my day today that feeling is back and I love it. I long to be here so much. I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings. I want God to bring me out of my comfort zone, again, and show me something amazing. If that means bringing me as low as I was today and basically be hit over the head with it, then bring it on--I'm ready!! I'm excited to see what God has in store for me next.
After breakfast, we went to church where we were playing with the children yesterday. It was amazing. The energy was crazy. These people really know how to worship. There was a little girl, probably around 6-8, just worshiping so amazingly. She was truly crying out to God. I will never forget that image. Once the service was over, the children gathered around and sang songs.
We then came back to the hotel to eat lunch. Lunch took forever and we were already running behind. We got in the bus and went to give lunch to the street kids. They were so happy. These boys have nothing--nothing at all and they still find enough joy in life to smile. They have no families, no place to sleep, no one to show them love, and they are still happy. It just amazes me.
After lunch, they all went to play soccer and this is when I started feeling sick. My stomach was cramping and it hurt so much. I really needed to find a bathroom. I was told there was a bathroom I could use. I grabbed some tissues and went to find it. I was told "they aren't good, but adequate". I was thinking the toilets must be dirty, but I could easily clean it off. I looked in the first once and there was nothing there. I thought maybe someone stole the toilet or something. I looking in the second one and realized that was it. A hole in the ground was the toilet. I had to go so badly I just had to do it. It was the most demeaning and humiliating thing I have ever done.
I knew I would need God to use something big to get my attention and have everything just click about Ethiopia, but I never thought that would be it. I was down at my lowest point and that is when I realized how bad things are here. These people have to squat over a hole every day of their life because they don't have plumbing. Geoffrey told me I shouldn't feel as bad as I do because they don't find it demeaning or humiliating because it's just life. But it shouldn't be that way. Everything they go through they shouldn't be ok with and just say it's life and to deal with it. Something should be done. No one deserves to live like this. No one should ever feel this is their lot in life and just deal with it.
I have to really pray for God's plan with all of this. I had this huge calling and feeling for being in Ethiopia for over a year, but as soon as I got here that seemed to go away. Even with everything I saw and experienced never brought that feeling back. But after my day today that feeling is back and I love it. I long to be here so much. I can't wait to see what tomorrow brings. I want God to bring me out of my comfort zone, again, and show me something amazing. If that means bringing me as low as I was today and basically be hit over the head with it, then bring it on--I'm ready!! I'm excited to see what God has in store for me next.
July 5, 2008
Today we drove to Ambo. After breakfast at the guest house, we had devotions. We discussed the first few verses of Mark where John the Baptist baptises Jesus, Jesus goes to the desert, adn he calls on His first deisciples. They went iwth Him immediately without hesitation. How difficult must that have been? Being called to Ethiopia I even questioned God to see if He was sure. Me? You want to send me? Are You sure? I couldn't imagine going immediately.
The drive to Ambo was pretty intense. I never realized the amount of people there would be. All the numbers from my research have now become people. It is starting to hit me, but I'm still waiting for the big hit. It was a long drive. Ethiopia is gorgeous. Green and beautiful. Greener than I thought it would be. Some of the things I saw on the drive I will never forget. The children just standing next to the shacks on the side of the road wearing just rags. Their clothes are so worn there is hardly anything left. Chidren gathering filthy water to drink made my stomach turn. I can just see them getting sick from a parasite or a disease and it breaks my heart, but what other choice do they have?
When we arrive in Ambo we checking into our hotel. It was really nice and for the 2nd time in 2 days I feel awful about it. We then drove to a Compassion International site. We were told the children were waiting all morning for us, but left before we got there. These plans were not set in stone so there was some miscommunication. While there we heard people singing and were invited to listen to them. There were about 10 teenagers practicing for Sunday worship. You would have thought the room was full because they were singing so loudly. It was amazing. I had no idea what they were singing, but it was beautiful! It may sound different thanmine, but both are worship to an amazing loving God!
Once we left there we went to a church/school. The children rand to the bus! They were so excited. As soon as I got off the bus, a little boy named Ganalah took my hand and would not let go of it all day. At one point I couldn't even walk around because he put my arm around him, held my hand, and wrapped his other arm around my leg and just laid his little face on my stomach. It was awesome!
We did our skit for the children which went very well. We did some singing and dancing and just had a great time. We did craft stations with them. By the third group I was shot. I'm actually glad it started raining because I just couldn't do it anymore. I was so drained physically and it was affecting my attitude.
The drive to Ambo was pretty intense. I never realized the amount of people there would be. All the numbers from my research have now become people. It is starting to hit me, but I'm still waiting for the big hit. It was a long drive. Ethiopia is gorgeous. Green and beautiful. Greener than I thought it would be. Some of the things I saw on the drive I will never forget. The children just standing next to the shacks on the side of the road wearing just rags. Their clothes are so worn there is hardly anything left. Chidren gathering filthy water to drink made my stomach turn. I can just see them getting sick from a parasite or a disease and it breaks my heart, but what other choice do they have?
When we arrive in Ambo we checking into our hotel. It was really nice and for the 2nd time in 2 days I feel awful about it. We then drove to a Compassion International site. We were told the children were waiting all morning for us, but left before we got there. These plans were not set in stone so there was some miscommunication. While there we heard people singing and were invited to listen to them. There were about 10 teenagers practicing for Sunday worship. You would have thought the room was full because they were singing so loudly. It was amazing. I had no idea what they were singing, but it was beautiful! It may sound different thanmine, but both are worship to an amazing loving God!
Once we left there we went to a church/school. The children rand to the bus! They were so excited. As soon as I got off the bus, a little boy named Ganalah took my hand and would not let go of it all day. At one point I couldn't even walk around because he put my arm around him, held my hand, and wrapped his other arm around my leg and just laid his little face on my stomach. It was awesome!
We did our skit for the children which went very well. We did some singing and dancing and just had a great time. We did craft stations with them. By the third group I was shot. I'm actually glad it started raining because I just couldn't do it anymore. I was so drained physically and it was affecting my attitude.
July 4, 2008
At 3:15am we finally land. I am in Ethiopia, Africa!! We wait in a line to get our visas. After everyone has gotten through, we go get our bags. Thank God all of the bags made it. Geoffrey picks us up from the airport. Waiting for our luggage to be loaded on to the van we have our first experience with a beggar. I just ignor her because if I don't respond she will probably walk away.
We arrive at the guest house at 5:30am. We only have a few hours to sleep before we need to get up. Those hours passed very quickly. We are up and getting ready before you could even feel rested. For lunch it is peanut butter and jelly crustless and toasted with french fries.
Barrett and his wife Rachel come to have lunch with us. Afterward, we talk about how we all found out about the trip. Then they both told us about the work they do. Barrett then told us some info to know about Ethiopia.
Then we went to The Light and Life Study Center in Kechene. It's a study center for youth in the community. On our way there we got our first real look at Africa. The poverty was unbelievable and we were told this was the richer part of town. I tried to block out most of what I was seeing cause I was not prepared to have a breakdown my first day. The scary part was I didn't have to try that hard---this stuff was just not affecting me. I feel like I'm such a horrible person, but Geoffrey assure me it will come. The overwhelming feeling of sadness for these people will hit me eventually.
At the study center, I was really nervous at first. I started playing with the children. They wanted all of us to play with them and they were so eager for us to participate. Their favorite game seemed to be pick-up-sticks, but I soon realized that is most likely because they really didn't have any other toys. They had about a half container of Play Dough and very worn cards that had to be years old.
I was playing cards with one little girl and it was the best part of my day. I taught her how to play memory and she was getting good at it. She even learned some of the numbers in English. We played a group drawing game then left because the children had to go home.
We then went to an internet cafe to email family to let them know we were safe. We then walked to dinner. On our walk a little boy came up to Geoffrey looking for money. He had a shirt and a scarf on only. There were some type of rashes on his legs and face. And still I felt nothing--there has to be something wrong with me!
We are off to Ambo tomorrow for a couple of days to work in a school and bring lunch to street kids. I still cannot believe I'm in Africa. I want to be blown away on this trip and am very much looking forward to it happening. I'm so humbled that God chose me to come to Ethiopia. This last year and a few months of falling in love with this country through reading I hope transforms into a love through seeing.
We arrive at the guest house at 5:30am. We only have a few hours to sleep before we need to get up. Those hours passed very quickly. We are up and getting ready before you could even feel rested. For lunch it is peanut butter and jelly crustless and toasted with french fries.
Barrett and his wife Rachel come to have lunch with us. Afterward, we talk about how we all found out about the trip. Then they both told us about the work they do. Barrett then told us some info to know about Ethiopia.
Then we went to The Light and Life Study Center in Kechene. It's a study center for youth in the community. On our way there we got our first real look at Africa. The poverty was unbelievable and we were told this was the richer part of town. I tried to block out most of what I was seeing cause I was not prepared to have a breakdown my first day. The scary part was I didn't have to try that hard---this stuff was just not affecting me. I feel like I'm such a horrible person, but Geoffrey assure me it will come. The overwhelming feeling of sadness for these people will hit me eventually.
At the study center, I was really nervous at first. I started playing with the children. They wanted all of us to play with them and they were so eager for us to participate. Their favorite game seemed to be pick-up-sticks, but I soon realized that is most likely because they really didn't have any other toys. They had about a half container of Play Dough and very worn cards that had to be years old.
I was playing cards with one little girl and it was the best part of my day. I taught her how to play memory and she was getting good at it. She even learned some of the numbers in English. We played a group drawing game then left because the children had to go home.
We then went to an internet cafe to email family to let them know we were safe. We then walked to dinner. On our walk a little boy came up to Geoffrey looking for money. He had a shirt and a scarf on only. There were some type of rashes on his legs and face. And still I felt nothing--there has to be something wrong with me!
We are off to Ambo tomorrow for a couple of days to work in a school and bring lunch to street kids. I still cannot believe I'm in Africa. I want to be blown away on this trip and am very much looking forward to it happening. I'm so humbled that God chose me to come to Ethiopia. This last year and a few months of falling in love with this country through reading I hope transforms into a love through seeing.
July 3, 2008
We arrive in London at 10:30am. We flew thorugh the whole night foing through many time zones. I almost got sick during the night because the turbulance was so bad. The flight attendants were very helpful to me. I tried to sleep as much as I could.
After getting to our new terminal there is a ticket problem for some in the group. Apparently there was a computer problem in Dallas and they figured it would just be dealt with in London. We have a few hour lay over so it's not a problem. We wait and try to sleep, but that is difficult to do. Finally, about 1:30pm we have a gate number. We make our way over and wait another 20 minutes or so then start boarding. We leave at 2:35pm. Our first stop is Amman, Jordan. It was cool to be in Jordan even if it was just sitting in a plane at the airport.
We take off again and are on our way to Addis Ababa. It is just about midnight and we have 2 1/2 hours more to fly before we reach our destination.
After getting to our new terminal there is a ticket problem for some in the group. Apparently there was a computer problem in Dallas and they figured it would just be dealt with in London. We have a few hour lay over so it's not a problem. We wait and try to sleep, but that is difficult to do. Finally, about 1:30pm we have a gate number. We make our way over and wait another 20 minutes or so then start boarding. We leave at 2:35pm. Our first stop is Amman, Jordan. It was cool to be in Jordan even if it was just sitting in a plane at the airport.
We take off again and are on our way to Addis Ababa. It is just about midnight and we have 2 1/2 hours more to fly before we reach our destination.
July 2, 2008
I wake up in a lot of pain after a horrible nights rest. My whole bady hurts, but especially my back. I take some pain killers and head to breakfast. They had waffles in the shape of Texas! I guess Texas is a very proud state.
We meet again to discuss out holiday day and our skit for the Prodigal Son. I think the skit will be very enjoyable for the children. If I can just learn to loosen up and have fun I will have a great time with the skit. God, a little help with that please? After we work on the skit we do final packing and head to the airport. Our flight is at 5:30pm so we have a few hours to chill. I find sugar free candy which I am very excited about. We fly throughout the night. It is about an 8-9 hour flight. I think I am getting better with this whole flying thing.
We meet again to discuss out holiday day and our skit for the Prodigal Son. I think the skit will be very enjoyable for the children. If I can just learn to loosen up and have fun I will have a great time with the skit. God, a little help with that please? After we work on the skit we do final packing and head to the airport. Our flight is at 5:30pm so we have a few hours to chill. I find sugar free candy which I am very excited about. We fly throughout the night. It is about an 8-9 hour flight. I think I am getting better with this whole flying thing.
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